I remember the sound...

It's been QUITE a day.  Worked and worked, (but had a marvelous time!  My co-workers are so so fun!), watched in dismay as Louisville lost, (Michigan State...really??) watched with delight as UNC won, then tried incredibly hard to get my work done to avoid staying up all night. Guess we'll see if my goal is achieved!

Good talks tonight.  Facing reality can be such a downer, but it's true, honesty is always the best policy.  We learn in psychology that people are much more egocentric than they realize.  We often imagine that our role in something is bigger than it actually is.  Therefore, we give ourselves more credit/practice more self-blame for an outside situation or a circumstance than we perhaps ought to.  Although it's our nature to do so, I still think its important to make  strides to correct this.  No one is thinking of you as much as they are thinking of themselves.  So to all the selfless do-gooders out there, take heed! : ) What you're doing is wonderful, but take a moment to consider yourself, and what YOU need.  All we can ever really be responsible for is ourselves, and seeing as that's precisely who everyone else is looking out for, you have no choice but to follow suit.  If you don't take care of yourself, keep yourself in check and demonstrate self-respect, the only person who will suffer....is you.  Haha, I direct this outwardly, but to be perfectly honest, I say it to convince and remind myself. Maybe someday, I'll believe it and actually listen. : )

As always,  I've been jamming out to the itunes all night, so here are the "hmm" lyrics that I found within the random songs of the evening.

I should know who I am by now
I walk the record stand somehow
Thinkin' of winter
The name is the splinter inside me
While I wait

And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wake...

~"Winter" Joshua Radin

I stood at the bottom of some walls I thought I couldn't climb
I felt like Cinderella at the ball just running out of time
So I know how it feels to be afraid
Think that it's all gonna slip away
Hold on, hold on

Here's to you free souls, you firefly chasers
Tree climbers, porch swingers, air guitar players
Here's to you fearless dancers, shaking walls in your bedrooms

There's a lot of wonder left inside of me and you
Thank God even crazy dreams come true...

~"Crazy Dreams" Carrie Underwood

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes
And leap...

It's time to try defying gravity,
I think I'll try defying gravity,
And you can't pull me down!

~"Defying Gravity" Wicked